Daddy being so sick is so hard on all of us now. I find myself going from one extreme to the other. I get up early before the birds wake up, just so I can rest in the solitude and quiet. Then I try to stay busy during the day so I don't have to think.
I know God is IN CONTROL. I keep reminding myself of this. I can't help but sometimes wonder the "Why?" questions that normal humans want to ask about things beyond understanding. Why pain? Why sorrow? Why us? I reckon God has it held in the palm of His Hand... His infallible timing, His steadfast care. I don't get it and I'm not supposed to understand. I'm just supposed to Believe. And I do.
There are lovely silver-linings though. This is a time when Family and Friends are the blessings you sometimes forget they are. Surrounded by loved ones shares the burdens and fears. You're not alone. Taking things one day at a time is as fast as the pace gets, and you are still not alone. There's always someone who cares about you somewhere, even if they are not in sight, they are out there thinking of you, praying for you, supporting you. Even if you forget and think you're alone, they are still there.
This post is more for me than you. The words are a visual reminder of God's goodness and a short release of inner thoughts, like steam leaking from a boiling teapot. I gain a little clarity before facing my day.
