I think it must be a test. All these things that seem to be happening at once. And it began back when Danny put in his retirement notice at work - the same day my job became obsolete. This past week the light in the Explorer came on and now he's going to have to take out the transmission, get it rebuilt, and reinstall it. So until next week when his friend can help him the truck sits waiting its "Surgery."

So he starts driving the red Miata. "I think there might be a problem with that too," he says. Something to do with a leak. So far I'm holding my breath that maybe he's just getting paranoid. Last night we're flipping channels and don't you know? the remote quite working. Blam! even new batteries didn't fix it. So today my mission is to find a programable one to replace it with.

Little things seem to kick his butt more than me. He worries so. I finally told him I think it's all a big test of faith. He is one of those people who want to know every little thing that's going on every second. But sometimes you have to roll with it.

We've all had those "the more I try, the more I fail" moments. So how could God who created us not be allowed to be in charge? I don't mean just when we've reached our very end of trying, but before then...while there's time to let Him pick the path, chose the moment, show us the opportunities. We screw up all the time when we try to figure it out ourselves, like putting a square peg in a round hole. All the time all we have to do is let go, and let God.

I don't know what will happen with the truck, or the car, or the bills, or jobs, or whatever. But at least we're not in wheelchairs, at least we're not blind, at least we have sharp minds to think with, and at least we have God to rely on to get us through.

I wish you all peace of mind. Enjoy the day; don't miss it while worrying about days that don't even exist yet.
LJ