Good early morning. It's just a little after 6 and I've had my 2nd tossing and turning night in a row. I've got a cold and it seems to be stuck. I've been using some of the Advil Cold and Sinus, which kept me dried up but did nothing for getting rid of it. Yesterday we stopped by the store and got some Tussin, a Food Lion version of Robatussin; this is an expectorant type. I expect to spend today getting better.

My nights are worse because of my replaced hips and now tingling arm. It's not easy to find a position that works for actually getting to sleep. At least last night I didn't have to sleep in a chair. That's because of the banana, though; potassium in bananas will help the leg cramps and clinching.

If I sound like I'm falling apart it's because I am. Dr. Barr told me I really am the poster child. I have some x-rays scheduled so far to begin seeing if we can find out what's causing the tingling in my arm. It's probably from my neck. She looked back in the records and said, "arthritis, arthritis, arthritis; what's with you and arthritis at such an early age?" I wish I knew.

It's very depressing; I see so much that I want to do like gardening, walking a distance, even vacuming and washing dishes. My house is a disaster...it takes me 3 days to do what it should take an hour. I'll just get going good and then I have to sit down and take the load off. After 10-15 minutes I'm better, but it's taken a lot of the momentum away.

I am getting psyched up to defeat as much of what's holding me back as I possibly can. I feel like I've been wallowing in self-pity; although not unjustified, it just makes things worse. If bad things are made worse by the mind then at least let's clean out the mind and have one less thing in the uphill battle. I have got to make some life changes before I am no longer able to do so.