Yesterday was Sunday. It was Dan's idea to attend church; I've given up on bringing up the subject, so it was a good start to a pretty good day. I have been thinking for quite some time now that I would like to move my membership back to Blackwater and yesterday morning I went up and did just that. Today I feel like a weight has lifted and I feel a great sense of excitement.
I feel like my "mission" at Oak Grove has been accomplished. The history book was taken care of and my purpose completed. Even though it is filled with wonderful people I have always felt like a visitor, not quite belonging, out of place. I doubted seriously if I'd ever really feel a calling to go back. There are a handful of people I miss who became dear friends, but they are not that far away and there's always the phone or email.
One of the last things Greg said yesterday was that if we see something we think ought to be done to come talk to him; don't just sit at home and talk to others about it. Well, it was like he was reading my mind. Everyday I play my keyboard and think how super it would be to be able to play, just for the quiet times at church. Maybe I'll talk to him one day. And I'd love to be able to do the website for church. It has a lot of potential that is greatly being overlooked at this point. And we won't even get into the choir! We all know that could be an avenue to travel!
For the time being I will wait. I ask God to send me a purpose, that I may be found worthy to do His bidding. What I think needs done and what He wants done by me are probably two different things. I don't want to go back in like a bull in a china shop, leaving a trail behind me. I just want to serve Him the best way I can.
Pray for me to hear God's call when it comes.
LJ
